|Rainbows - Maria A Smith|
The week before my daughter was fretting over an essay she needed to hand in, it's her final year at University and she'd worked so hard on it. We had a scary half hour when she thought she'd accidentally deleted it! I managed to find it on her laptop and all was well again. It was a relief when she handed it in I can tell you as the stress was coming off her in waves. And work, well let's just say the day job's been a tad challenging of late, due to a new system that's been introduced.
My dentist thinks I'm clenching my jaw AGAIN as I broke another tooth last week too, which involved a costly repair. It might be work related, or life in general that's making me clench my jaw, who knows? I'm trying hard to be aware of it when life is challenging.
Is it just me that's having a 'challenging' month? No, of course not, this is normal, this is the rollercoaster of LIFE, and all of us from time to time have unexpected ups and downs, and obstacles thrown into our path.
What's happened in the last two weeks, has reinforced what I'd come round to thinking a long time ago - there's nothing as important as your health, it really is your wealth, and without it, you won't have as good a quality of life as someone who is well. Money is secondary, yes, of course it helps, you need it to put a roof over your head, pay bills and eat, but good health comes above all of that.
I'm taking everything in my stride. I'm NOT getting upset and wound up when things happen because it's better to keep a calm head and deal with it. When my weekly writing plan, doesn't go to plan, of course I'm dismayed, and I wonder how I'm going to catch up, so I say to myself, 'I'm doing my best and that's okay.' I make it my mantra. 'I'm doing my best and that's okay' The key is to do whatever you can, and not feel like you've failed.
When it gets to Friday and the only exercise I've done is fifteen minutes of walking up and down the pool, and all those promised thirty minute walks never materialised, it's disheartening. Of course it is, like when I've done really well on the scales and lost more than a few pounds, but then when disater strikes in another area of life I falter, and fall off my plan, and raid the biscuit tin! What do I say to myself? 'What can I learn from this?' Okay so I'm a slow slow learner on that one, but I'll keep reinforcing the message. 'What can I learn from this?'
January's progress wasn't the plan I had in mind. However, it's not the end of my best laid plans, it just means I need to regroup, take some deep breaths and get back out there again. 'I can do this!' And that is another of my cheer-leading mantras. 'I can do this.' Of course I can, even if it's going to take me a little longer, or if I have a tight deadline, I'll find another way.
The way you think about yourself could be the key to success, and the first steps towards change are accepting yourself for the way you are. At last I think I'm doing that, and I'm learning to work with what I've got, as lets face it, we all do things differently. As long as we get over the finish line, does it matter how we did it?
In the midst of all the chaos good things happened too, but I had to look out for them. I mean really look out for them, because often we overlook the good stuff by not paying attention. Don't believe me? Okay, this week, look for the good things that happen in your day. Try and find two things every day, and write them down before you go to bed. At the end of the week you'll have a list of stuff, you'd ordinarily not think about too much. Hey, they were good things, so celebrate them. Here's my list.
I saw a double rainbow, just after a heavy shower. Isn't nature amazing? I watched the movie Darkest Hour, and thought how lucky are we to live in a country without war. I spent time with friends and enjoyed a meal in their company. I heard the joy in my daughter's voice when she told me her tutor had said she'd done good on her essay. I held my first Subs Club ( for writers who want to submit their work) meeting of 2018, I've wrote flash fiction, an article and done some edits on my novel and I saw a robin on my way to work.
So yes, I had a wobble, and I dare say they'll be more as 2018 unfolds, but I'm getting back on track, and I'm looking forward, not back.
How's life treating you?